All I Can Handle

A long time ago, I would never have questioned any desire to learn or do something new. Why else would I have self-studied Spanish, started a cacti and succulent collection, or created a website for Filipino writers when I was a teenager? I miss the old me who just did things for the fun of it. Today, whenever I am presented with an idea to learn or do something new, I always ask myself if it's worth the trouble and if I will get anything out of it. This is probably why I haven't done or learned anything new in the past few years of my life. I read some articles online about cynicism and they say that part of it is being older. Being older means that you now have a jar of experiences that you can dip into whenever you're faced with decision-making. While it tends to take out the fun in life, cynicism is also useful because it makes us cautious and caution is always a good thing. Not too much of it, anyway. I remember, a few years ago, while visiting my hometown, upo